Friday, January 16, 2009

What I can't control

I was thinking about a situation that occurred a few weeks ago. I was on my lunch break, just before Christmas, and when I got back to my car in the parking lot, I was blocked in by a tow truck. I was just a few spots away from the car needing a tow, which appeared to have just been in a wreck. It took the tow truck a while to get the car situated, and I was the only one to be affected by this. Instead of waiting patiently, and maybe even eating my lunch that I just picked up, I pulled a passive agressive act, and harumphed by my car.

Seriously, Jacey? What will you gain from this? I don't know why it upset me so much. Perhaps because the guy didn't say a word or acknowledge me. That would have been polite, but the family getting their car towed were inconvenienced a lot more than my 15 minute waiting period. I don't know why I let it affect me so much, but I did. Enough that I'm thinking about several weeks later, and regretting how I handled it.

I need to let go. I need to stand up for myself when it's important and just let the rest roll off. It's incredibly shameful that I get so bent out of shape about something so insignificant and out of my hands. I guess being aware of it is at least a small portion of the battle, but I'm going to try to be consciously aware of when I'm starting to freak and find a way to NOT.

Life is too short.

2 comments:

  1. You have a lot of maturity. Most people wouldn't even attempt to examine themselves like this..

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  2. If it makes you feel any better, I would have handled it so much worse. I probably would have gone to talk to the guy and claimed to need to leave immediately to make an important doctor's appointment or something.

    The thing is that it was so inconsiderate to not even say anything to you like a quick "sorry" and I hate vehemently when people are unnecessarily inconsiderate.

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